Miriam was aghast when shesaw that the huge black penis that these boys sportedwere much bigger than her very own husband’s. She hadpreviously heard... several of her teacher friends talkingabout how large Negroes were; now she knew what theyhad been referring to.True to his form, her husband was already in bed thatnight when she arrived home from the movie and foundhim sound asleep as he lay snoring loudly. Miriamslipped under the covers without waking him. The moviehad been highly erotic and she. You'll just have to get another boy for them." Nobody wants another boy, Kenny. You have to stop thinking that way. Do you think you're some kind of interchangeable part, someone that we can all plug in, and unplug, whenever we feel like it? Your mom and dad have been worried sick about you. Bertie's been in her room ever since you left. The only reason she isn't under a blanket in her closet, is because she needs to be alert, so that we can tell her when you're found. I came out here as soon. "Get something to eat at Frank's too. I don't feel like cooking tonight. Don't stay out too late either, we all have church tomorrow." I took the money and told her thank you. Ten bucks. She must really have wanted me out of the house to give me so much. I went to the phone and called Bill."Hey, you want to go to the movies tonight?" Promise to keep your hands to yourself?" You are really disgusting. Yes or no?" Let me ask my mom." Bill was gone for about five minutes. "She says I can't go,. The guilt, however great, never stopped me from fantasizing. If I was going to turn over a new leaf, and try to be open and truly honest with my potential partners, I needed to acknowledge this part of me. Let it out, and learn how to engage it.Suddenly I realized what was so terrifying about being myself. I was petrified about letting the dominant part of me out. What if they thought I was sick. What if they laughed. Worst of all, what if I hurt somebody? Jesus. That would destroy me.But I was.