Mein baht khush tha jaise cheezein ek dum settle hoti ja rahi thi . meine kaha maa aapko sorry kehne ki jaroorat nahin hai . You ar my mother , my fri...nd my love everything . aaj se jaise aap kahoge vaisa hoga just be with me .Mom ki eyes mein aansoo the , pata nahin ek dums e kya hua she came near me and huged me tightly and said nahin neta aaj se jaisa hum dono chahenge vaisa hoga . We are one from today and she kissed my forehead . I also hugged her with one hand and treid to put the other. To dazzle and understand you is what I crave to add to your life. To love and to hold you, when the whole world is frowning at you, is what I aim to achieve by you. Hey, I'm not saying I’m perfect for you, but do tell, how many get to have what I am offering you with the purest of hearts and intentions? It’s not being egotistical or proud when I say I am a catch. Just like a flower that blossoms in the storm when others fade or are carried away by the gale, I stand despite the gust. I am like a. Giving up control is scary. You just need to relax.” After my mini panic attack subsided, I excused myself and went into the bathroom to perform a quick repair job on my make-up. I also stood for a long moment, gazing at the necklace… collar… in the mirror. It was a lovely piece of jewelry, again proving that Joe had exquisite taste. However, it brought home the reality that he ‘owned’ me, as if I really was his slave. I both hated and loved the artistic piece for what it was, and what it. A mutual friend at the restaurant was having a going away get together at the Arsenic Club before she moved away to go to college out of state. I had nothing to do and no excuse to make so I went. Most of my work friends were there as were Sara and Gary. At the time this was probably the wildest night club in Cincy. If you couldn't hook up there you were truly hopeless. Not exactly a gay club but close to it. All the kinky and fetishy types went there.The music pulsed as hollow-eyed pleasure.