Mujhe dar bhi lag raha tha ki aaspas koi h to nahi. Par shukar h door door tak koi nahi tha. Ab main apne aap ko contrl nahi kar paa raha tha. Maine... usko shawl se bahar nikal aur peeche andhere me chalne ka ishara kiya. Wo ekdum se maan gya. Peeche bhut shanti thi aur thodi jhhadiyan thi. Mujhe yakeen nahi ho raha tha ki main ye sab kya kar raha hn. Khi train is beech me aa gyi to. Pr mera dimag ghoom chukka tha. Jhhdiyon me jane ke baad main use apni jeens utarne ko kha. Usne ekdum meri baat. I just need to do what I have to do that's all. It's no big deal now you know all about it."My Mother didn't say anything but stared at me intensely for a long time. A very long time. As if she was making a decision, she raised her hands to her face, balled them into small fists then with a little squeak of submission, she flung her arms out wide and took another step towards me. It was like she had stepped over some sort of emotional and moral line in the sand and only later would I realize. It also specifies your possible likelihood of mortality." Likelihood of what? I wasn't expecting to live forever anyway." This strain will make that even less likely," said the doctor glumly.Well fuck that, thought Olive as she wandered out of the surgery past the winding queue. Like her, none of the other patients had the steady income required to pay insurance premiums for health care. Most were elderly, young or disabled. Few were employed, although even those lucky ones were unlikely to be. Then a new room was created for him, our parents citing I was getting too old to be in the same room, they were four years behind the times, we had already discovered the hidden pleasures of having different bodies.By my sixteenth birthday I had surrendered my virginity and was having regular sex, my younger brother clearly obsessed with me, still tried his luck at seeing me nude or horse play where he would try to fondle my intimate parts, he knew I was fucking guys, and he wanted his sister.