Simply put, I was not sure I had the right to make these decisions. It was not that I had doubts about what was happening, but everything was still si...nking in and my role had yet to be defined. I was not sure about my boundaries in this situation and until I understood them I did not want to cause offence to anyone. I got back into the car and drove to Peter's and went nuts cleaning and settling myself back in. I played music and was dancing as I cleaned. I knew I was home alone and would not,. ” “Good! I’m so glad, after all you’ve been through.” “Yes, thanks again Mum.” “Ooh, one thing. Actually I did have a little bit of trouble with Paul.” “You did?” “Yes. I caught him masturbating. Naked as a jaybird he was. All he could say was “Oh, Nan!” I wasn’t happy.” “Was this in his bedroom?” “Oh no! That would have been forgivable.” “Where then?” “In the orangery. It’s lucky we’re not overlooked!” “What a strange place to be doing it. He wasn’t expecting you, obviously.” “Obviously not! I. But wouldn't itbe fun to have the ability.When I was fifteen I experienced a life changing happening. I was on mypaper route about 6:30 one morning when I came upon a single car wreck.A gentleman had gone off the road and hit a tree. The car was prettysmashed up and he was pinned inside. It had just happened because one ofthe wheels was still turning. I could see the figure of an older guy lyingacross the steering wheel. He started to move his head so I thought I'vegot to get him out of. So Kristy's sound sleep had been born of both exhaustion and the reassurance by Victoria that Janeen's banishment once again to wagon three would not be reversed as long as Kristy could satisfy her audience the way she had done last night.Kristy pondered the toll that kind of commitment would exact upon her, but the mere thoughts of being close, of being held, being kissed, being fed upon by Victoria would have driven her to take her own life if necessary. Never had Kristy been more certain of.