Trying to contemplate my next move seemed senseless and yet necessary at the same time. It had been so long since I had given myself even a flicker of... a thought and had only worried about what was best for ‘her’ or what would make ‘her’ happy, but damn it I wanted things too and I wanted to smile again. I had been content at some point in my life, at least I thought so at the time, otherwise I wouldn’t have stayed as long as I did. I waded through the freshly fallen snow with thoughts flowing. I hadn’t been eaten out in like 3 years. I didn’t even know what to say, sitting there topless in a thong with a hott younger guy on his knees, sucking my tits then moving up my collarbone and neck kissing me with his hand pressed against the crotch of my panties… I could have died right there, it just felt amazing. He kissed down my stomach and parted my thighs. “Put your hands behind your head.” So I grabbed onto the top of the couch and just looked down at him kissing my clit through my. But we’re adults here. We can get past this. Friends?’ He put his hand out. Elise took it in an almost business-like manner. ‘Friends.’ Neither mentioned the fact that ‘friends’ had been the same promise they’d made each other just the previous night. ‘So, breakfast?’ Robert asked, keen on getting past it, past the awkwardness. ‘Yeah. It’s, what, 830? Let’s go eat now and maybe do the west loop tour first?’ Elise pointed out a section of the tour map sitting out on the bureau dresser. ‘Sounds. I could not understand why theyneeded to change so often.I was told it was all about feeling pretty.When we arrived at the mall, we spent the first hour in H&M. The girlsshopped while I browsed the men's section. It was pretty boring becauseI had no money to spend. A few times, Sandy and Alex asked my opinionon some things they had tried on. That was fun as they were gorgeousand it gave me license to stare and gawk at them.At one point, I mindlessly browsed some of the dresses and skirts. .