I can feel it ripping me to shreds, even now,” Jason muttered, speaking with Dr. Nelson in the visitation chamber of the prison. Unlike the TV shows... and movies where the inmates were held back by reinforced glass windows and had to speak through phones, this penitentiary had a large cafeteria-like room where inmates and their visitors could speak openly across tables. The room was empty, except for Jason and Professor Nelson. Even the guards were asked to stand outside so that no one could. I always love my mother like anything. I still love her like anything. She is most precious for me in the world at last my hear won and I planned to make love to her. I slowly went inside her bed room, my heart were making thudding sound. It was winter’s night. I was shaking with fear/excitment. I sat beside my mother and hold her shoulder with both of my hands. You must be surprised that why I did not mentioned her figure as I told you she is most precious for me so I do not want to reveal her. When she welcomed me, I noticed she's a little bit drunk but I didn't say anything.At the meal, she said that dad will not come today because of fishing competition. I've got a chance to do something with it. All nigh alone, only with my drunk mother.But it was mom who did a first step. Later we were watching tv and drinking some vine when mom asked me if I could massage her back. 'Of course I can, just sit at to me.' I said and made a place on the sofa.She sat back to me and let me do my job.. We were worried you wouldn’t wait.”, she said as she started to walk down the steps into the parking lot. “I’m so sorry, Tom. Diane still isn’t back from lunch yet. She’s supposed to relieve Sheila for her lunch. Sheila didn’t want me to meet you by myself, but now that it was this late she told me to make sure you didn’t leave. She gave me the keys to her van and told me to have you wait in there for her.”, she continued as she walked towards me. “I see. It’s OK.” “Oh my God, Tom. I guess.