“Of course,” her mom said. “When can you take care of it?”“Tomorrow, after work, say 6PM,” I said.“Ok,” Aimee said. “I’ll come ov...er to your place after practice.”We then went to dinner and all had a good time. I couldn’t help but to notice how cute Aimee was and so grown up now. It was like talking with an adult during the whole conversation and many times both her mom and dad reminded us all that she was now an adult and had to make her own decisions regarding many things. I never looked at. I had to come up with a plan and fast. I didn’t buy any booze that day and instead paced back and forth most of the night trying to think of what to do. I realized I wanted to work again, but my mind was still out of balance from the Sarah/David incident. I still couldn’t shake their betrayal from my mind even now. One idea after another: none seemed to be viable. Rehab was a possible option, but that would mean I’d have to admit that I was wrong before (I was extremely prideful during this. The clerk would hand him the same key and smile “welcome back kiddo”. As TJ walked down the hall to his room for the night Cain was coming down the hall the opposite way, neither would take their eyes from the others, there was a whole connection. It was like a face off of good and evil. A demon verses a savior. As they would cross each other’s paths Cain would crack his neck side to side, and TJ would tighten his fist until his knuckles cracked. The tension was so heavy. But Cain Began to. Eventually, he will leave me. Even the one who came to stay.”I felt the splash of moisture touch my cheek and wondered at the sense of loss I felt. I longed to reach out to her and caress her skin the way she touched mine. If only I could make her feel what she does to me, there would be no doubt left in her mind. But I am passive, unresisting as she works around me, unable to make the sounds that she makes.Reach out to me. Touch me. I will love you always. Don’t search for another. Don’t hold.