Chad's death had left a hole in the family that had never been refilled. So there had never been a man for a little girl to fall in love with, like mo...st little girls do at one time or another, and then fall out of love with, at least in sexual terms.Caitlin thought that was silly, and opined that, if that was what had happened, it would have happened that first summer, when she was around me for an extended period of time. She claimed she'd always known I was the coolest uncle a girl could. The party was excellent. Chris was in the kitchen making mudslides and passing out shots. My wife was starting to feel the affects of the booze with a good buzz going on. The eyes of all the guys were on Christine at some point throughout the evening. Chris was paying extra attention to her as well as two other friends of mine, Mike and Steve. I could tell by the way they were brushing up against her, grabbing her whenever they could.I was mingling around while Christine was talking to other. I remember ... The fire creates ... the fire consumes ... I consume myself ... and create ... anew... ‘The muddy water in the blast crater bubbled and boiled, then blew skyward as the tiny, mind-made, mud volcano erupted steam, mud, and a live body from its depths.‘And God formed woman from the mud in the bowels of the earth... ‘“Like hell... (cough) ... he did!” Lisa exclaimed, trying to lift herself up out of the hot, slippery mud in which she found herself lying. “Fuck!” she cried out,. It's not right and you could get hurt. Or catch a disease or get pregnant or worse!" So what if I get pregnant or catch a disease. I'm dying anyway so it don't matter." It matters to me, Rose. I want you to pass with dignity, not like some two-bit whore!" I want to die leaving you something, Daddy. I want to give back to you what you've lost because of me." Listen to your daughter, John. She's doing this for you," the voice on the phone added."Just stay out of this!" John shouted into the.