Linda stayed away from work for about a month.Why would she not tell me what was wrong? I sat in my office many times just wondering and hurting, real...ly hurting, because my love was not there. I decided to take drastic measures.I arranged a lunchtime meeting with Linda's husband, he tried to brush things under the carpet, but I knew that he was hiding something. I was up against a wall of silence.During the night of the Jewish new year, my father died from heart failure. My mother was. I managed to ejaculate and everything but for the most part of the experience, I was imagining that I was fucking a guy. That's when the thought occurred to me that I must be gay. I had to be.I went the next three years without one bit of sex. I was getting quite a few advances from girls but kept saying 'I'm seeing somebody' to try and get out of it. Plus, being a closet homosexual didn't grant you any action at all. I'd be lying if I said I didn't enjoy every single minute of being a closet. My wife did not want to go the sperm bank as she did not trust them and thought it better to get her jizz fresh from the cock. So next on the list was to have several one night stands with strngers until she got knocked up. But she did not like this idea either as she has had several before she met me and did not like them. We also thought about getting one of our friends to pork her but that has alot problems there also. Now my wife is a cute red head but she lightens her hair to a strawberry. We said goodbye and she pulled me in for a deep kiss. We meet at my place and i was as if we had known each other for years. We made out and moved to my bedroom, leaving clothes on the floor throughout the house. She waned to start by giving me head, but I held her head and told her that the day would be about her. Removed her thong and started kissing her groin and thighs until she just grabbed my hair and pushed my mouth onto her dripping pussy. I must have licked her, sucked her, bit her,.