. this man. I lay inbed that night smiling. The contest that started all this was a memoryquickly growing dimmer each passing day, yet I had to comple...te myjourney, if for no other reason that to prove to myself that I was notonly a woman, but one that would experience being pregnant. That's theexact moment when I decided to seduce Jeff, and have him be the father ofmy baby.There are no visible signs when a woman concedes herself to a man, yetsomehow my mother knew. Call it mother's intuition,. I started to search the internet for a married woman, or a woman in a relationship who felt trapped and lost as I did, with the intention of making another person feel better about themselves, hoping in turn it would make me feel better within myself. I wasn’t quite ready for what did happen. I searched the internet for sites, and they all wanted money, so I bit the bullet one day and joined a site which was for the sole purpose of people in relationships looking to cheat with others in. I felt so close to Gabriel at that point, so I didn’t protest at all he leaned in close and kissed me. I pushed down my guilt when I felt his hands reach up and cup my breasts. It felt good for him to caress my body, to help me heal from the pain of my past. I couldn’t keep my hands from roaming across his back, his chest, and even venturing down to his nether regions. He shuddered the first time my fingertips strayed across his bulge in his pants. I smiled and asked him if he liked it when I. "Oh God! I am so sorry!" Alana said, dropping her weapon, "That mustreally sting!" It does!" I sobbed, milking it for a little extra sympathy. I liked anyextra attention I could get my hands ons since becoming a girl; I wasunsure if that was because I was getting greedy after all the attentionthat had been heaped onto me, or because my personality had altered.Either way, I liked the warmth of the spotlight these days. That ended the pillow fight, nothing like someone hitting you rightwhere it.