I could feel tears welling in my eyes now and blinked them back."What you gave me was an electrical anal stimulator; a zapper," he said."What the fuck...?" I blurted. "What kind of perv would zap their asshole?" Mostly gay men," he laughed. "But I modified it. I've dropped the voltage and made it release a series of micro shocks rather than one big one." Will it hurt?" Please say no please say no please say no."Not really," he said, "it just makes all of the local muscles contract until the pulse. I realized he’d probably heard everything I had talked about with Colin. Had Colin talked to Pete too? I hoped he wasn’t feeling left out. Another twinge of anxiety went through me. Where was Lara? I realized that Pete hadn’t said a word to me since the set was over. He was looking extremely reserved, when he should be at least enjoying the moment.“So are we going to Jake’s party?” Shannon asked me.I snapped out of my thoughts. “I doubt it. Unless you want to?”“Whatever. But we should at least. He coukdbt go out to an adukt book store and spread her legs open covervher eyes and tell her it was me but the hands are other men or meeting in college psrking lot and prearrange young guys to slip in the suv as u did so many times and pin her head down to the back face down and get fucked by a guy i either slip a 20 or say i got a milf or cougar from palm beach or meal ticket if u get her pregnant. All these things led up her daughter. Going to college and me meeting her in a hotel in a town. A hot meal filled the inner boy. He used the firelight to update his journal, writing his impressions of the day, then he lay down for sleep. He awakened briefly to fold one wool blanket as a pad, and to wrap himself in the second. His rolled jacket served as a pillow.The dancing flames cast moving images through his eyelids, and these merged with moving images of light and shadow in his mind. Dream state: the free realm where the mind wanders not in ordered paths as the traveler will, but.