I do this almost every night........I bought a new dildo its 10 inches and about two inches or so thick... Ive decided to fuck my ass for the first ti...me.. The dildo has a suction cup on it so i can stick it to my desk chair so that i can impale my virgin ass on it..I did it last night..I set up a camera so that i may re-live this experience..I began by cutting myself 8 times in diffrent places.. Then when the blood flow was enough i wrote Siren all over myself even my face! I stood there naked. I remember him knowing my name, which I did not expect. I remember him telling me how wonderful I looked, and I, returning the compliment. The fact that I had been drinking a lot did not help either. I had had a large glass of wine before coming out, and was drinking double Vodkas with Coke. I was more than a little drunk when what I had hoped so much would happen, did. Dan gave me a sign. A little one, but enough for me to be sure. Someone was trying to get past behind me, and Dan put his hand. .. fall asleep... Tomorrow!Half asleep, asleep on already, I think, a sound can be heard... has someone beaten on the door? It occurs to me that I have not blocked the door… in any case with this outdated lock it would be only a superficial gesture, but still I should have done...Pale moonlight poured in through the open patio door, shining on the latch of the room door... it moves? Danger! My old instincts awakened! I breath more calmly than I would sleep, but I'm awake... wide awake! Every. I..."His eyes were scanning her nakedness, uncontrollably, and Linda felt them, knowing what he had to be thinking. She wanted him to be enraged at finding Karen in such a position, wanted him to run to Don and Valerie and pull them away from his girl. But it was only too apparent that he was aware of what was going on between them, and in fact that he was likely on his way to joining them all. If only he would run at them... Then I wouldn't feel what I'm feeling... Such horrible thoughts....