And, although Haver’s strap fell repeatedly, it was no longer humanely possible for either of the girls to proceed in anything like an upright postu...re. They were bent forward, head hanging, and Havers ceased to demand the impossible. “M-Mercy... hhaahh... m-mercy... I c-can’t go... on...” It was Julia, nearing the end of her tether, now staggering. “Keep moving!” Ccrraacckk! “Aaaggghhh... aaagghh...” It was the final straw. Julia fell face down to the floor, still crushed under the weight of. Now, he knew he wasn’t.They would be fine with or without him in their lives. Certainly no one wanted him gone. Everyone was happy to see him and it was clear that everyone wished he could stay longer. But he understood that life would be different in the spring – and not just with his friends.He, alone in the core group, was the only person not in a prominent campus position. The freshmen – by far the largest group on campus – had no idea of who he was. The roles everyone played now would. When he pushed the straps over my shoulders and let them fall down my arm I tensed and the butterflies in my stomach took flight up my throat. I closed my eyes and took a deep breath to still my mind. As my eyes opened Jeremy was not looking at my face, but staring at my chest. I blushed and looked down just to see him taking a tentative approach to reach for my breast. He had touched and squeezed them before, but now they were bared to his eyes and at his disposal. As I watched him slowly. .. I was born witha birth defect... I was born without... Umm... without testicles... Wefound out when I was around twelve... I'll never develop as a guy... I'llnever be able to perform like...Someone like you would want me too...I..," I can't say anymore because I totally break down and slide down thewall until I'm sitting on the floor.Alicia sits down and puts her arms around me and just holds me until Ieventually cry it all out. Finally, I'm able to look at her again and sayto her, "Alicia..