Carol had never actually mentioned them but that didn't prevent Lizzy from not only knowing they were there, but seeing the pain they were causing her.... She had asked me to make her a key that allowed her access to Carol's dreams so she could try and figure out what was going on. It was the same approach we had used to figure out Angela's problem not so long before, but we hadn't talked about it since then."I didn't think you'd gotten that far along yet," I said."We haven't, and I've sort of. Obviously my temper was still up when I squealed the tires in the driveway. Well there's another lecture from mom when I get home.Instead of going the gym I just drove around town for most of the evening, not wanting to go home, but not really having anywhere else to go either. At around 11:00 I decided to head back, I figured by now mom would be asleep and that I could sneak in without further inquiries or lectures.Sure enough I was right, all the lights were out and mom was sound asleep, but. I have to. I can’t fall apart whenever I think of her, or else I’ll never be able to let myself think about her.”“You can feel however you naturally feel, Ryan,” said Chad, “there’s no ‘have to’ about it. She was amazing, and you can be in love with her forever. Fuck, dude ... no matter how many girls you lay, Gina was ‘that one’ that mattered. I hope to find someone like that, man. Even with as much crazy shit as we’ve had fun doing, when I’m older I hope to find someone like that for. Even then I suspected he had the hots for mother and probably saw this as a way of getting rid of me. I wondered how I would cope with the notoriety of having it reported in the press and how I would find life behind bars. My bloody mother, would no doubt, paint the bleakest picture of my behaviour and make out she was a saint.Eventually they came back. Eric, pretending he was some sort of TV lawyer, stood in front of me and spoke like a judge pronouncing sentence, "Louise, look at your.