Jacobs. You want me to help you be attractedto men and be more, bitchy, was the word you used?" I said I want to lust for men. Can you help me?"He e...xplained to me that sexuality was more of a spectrum than just eitherhetero or homosexual. With conditioning, we could draw out where I wason that spectrum. Through hypnosis and therapy, we could shift mypersonality. He put me under on that first visit and gave me CD's tolisten to. He also gave me a mantra that I repeated often, "I'm. But you don’t need to be concerned about any inappropriate behavior. Really, she’s in the same class as...”“As... ?” Rachel prodded.“Well, there are other attractive older ladies that I like a lot. None of them would ever give me a second glance,” I said. Besides, I was happy just being with Rachel and in a week, Desi would be home for a week and then Joan. And I had dance lessons with Brittany this week. And ... And I just wasn’t going to tell anyone about how attracted I was to older women.. They were really good looking, including my sister, but they knew it.I went to my room, watched some tv and drifted off.I was awakened later that night by my sister who was visibly drunk. She was standing in my doorway calling my name.I looked over at her as I rubbed my eyes."What do you want Gina"?"Hey Derek, want to have some fun"?I was very skeptical and told Gina to go away.She came over to my bed and her friends were peeking in."We want to learn how to do blow jobs" Yeah right, go away". . I'ma girl..."Abruptly, her sobbing slowed, and she roused, looking up at me throughtears with an utterly serious gaze."Look -- get me out of here. Please. I'll do what you want -- daughter,girlfriend, mistress, hooker, whatever, as long as it doesn't hurt. Justget me out of here!" How do I know I won't get in trouble?" It's okay, I'm eighteen, I'm legal, I checked. _I_ didn't want to get introuble." She looked down at herself. "I didn't think it'd matter thismuch..."I wasn't sure how much.