You put the mug in front of me. ‘What happened?’ ‘I’m an idiot.’ I don’t know why I do this. I get frustrated and I just want to come to y...ou, get re-centered in my world, and get back on my feet. But I never come right out and say it. I don’t say: ‘I had a stupid, minor, entirely avoidable car accident and that – combined with being a full time single-dad – has got me feeling like I’m running on empty.’ For the life of me, I wish I knew how to say ‘I haven’t felt this down since Marlene died.’. Later I realized that the same thought (about the happenings in my sordid lair) had also occurred to her!After considering the relative merits of 20 or so dildoes, we arrived at a page with a strap-on harness. She gasped out-loud, (I did inwardly) and beckoned me to pause scrolling while she read.When she asked me if I had ever experienced the use of such a contraption, I harrumphrd loudly and thought that would be the end of it, but when she started stroking my neck lightly with her. I know you love her, and you're probably leaving to try to put her behind you, but ... what would you think about spending one night with her? With us? You could show me, show her what pleasure is. You would get the opportunity to be with her, even if just the once. I know, were the situation reversed, that I would give anything for that kind of memory to treasure. You would have to know it would only be the once – I am not willing to give her up, not ever, and I do not wish to share, either.. Still, it was the first time I saw a dick that wasn’t my dad’s or brother’s or cousin’s.We all jumped in the pool and swam around, getting used to the water. It felt good on my naked body and it was something I had never done. As it was many times during the day as a young teenager, my dick was rock solid. I jerked off many times a day to relieve myself back then… Suddenly, the whistle blew three times and we all jumped out and lined up on the edge of the pool. In the chill, my balls pulled in.