Causing my life to turn upside down and make me hate life as well as myself. I can't even believe in myself anymore. I've lost the desire to create an...d bring laughter to others. I can't bring myself to want anything, to hope or even love.I don't deserve love anyway, not even love for myself. I did a horrible thing to someone else and deserve to suffer for it. Coincidentally, I've found a perfect way to do that. Sexual humiliation has become something I am rather good at taking and being used. He turned and slammed me into thewall, pressing our bodies together. He broke our kiss only so that hecould bury his face in my breasts. I moaned as his lips and tongueroamed over that burning skin and I squealed when his teeth nibbled atthe soft flesh. I ran my finger through the tight curls of his hair,than rested them on his shoulders, so that I could support myself. Mylegs wrapped around his waist as he lowered me ever so slightly. Ourfaces were centimetres apart. Our skin and our. I am as mortal as you. A stake through my heart will certainly kill me, but so will disease or being run over by a carriage or falling from a cliff." Then you are not an instrument of... ?" The devil? Ha! We Ragonians may not be religious but we are certainly not evil or at least no more so than humans. No, I may cross running water whenever I wish and crosses or holy water have no effect on me. I do avoid direct daylight because vampire eyes are extremely sensitive to light, but I won't melt. She’d be nobody special to me under normal circumstances. She’s just the last girl I hooked up with before I came in. That night was extraordinary. Well, not really, I guess. The date was boring, and she obviously didn’t know what to make of being seen with me. Had I not been so fucking horny I might not have actually slept with her, but in the end, we were taking advantage of each other about the same amount, and that’s what sticks out in my mind. That and the absolutely amazing sex,.