I took the knife from her hand and laid it on the counter beside her. I turned her to face me and as she looked into my deep green eyes I said ‘ My... beautiful child, I know that this is hard for you and that you feel lost but please this is not the answer. Look to heaven, know that your love is there waiting for you and that if you chose to take your own life you shall never join him there.’ ‘ I know, but it just hurts so much I so long to see him to know that he still loves me.’ as I hold her. They wouldn't hear of anything else."I laughed and said, "That could get interesting - you might get your wish to try out Mike after all."Jan blushed and didn't say anything, but once again our lovemaking that evening was rather more intense and upbeat than normal - and that's saying something these days!The day before the date of the wedding Jan took herself off to our local Spa beauty centre for a 'Me' day and as she put it, 'to have me and my appearance tuned up for next week.'Me? Typical. ..you won't need the old one for a while, and if you do decide toreturn to being a boy we can get you a new license then."I started school two days later, and the very first person I saw was aclassmate from high school! I did my best to steer clear of him, runninginto another classmate, Beth. She looked at me, then we went to ourseats. When the professor called out our names we each raised our hands.I saw Beth look at me when my name was called, and feared the worst. Onlyone day and I had been. “Excuse me, Benny but I have to pee real bad.”He laughed and gave her another quick kiss on the cheek before cutting across the lawn toward home.Benny slept in, something he rarely did. When he awoke around ten, he lay in bed with a smile on his face thinking about Becky Sue and the prom. He already had a morning stiffy, so he took advantage and slipped a sock over it. Imagining it sliding into Becky’s body, it only took a few tugs to unleash several spurts of goo. When he began to wilt, he.