Not at all. I was upset, not suicidal. But, I've heard that people who have near-death experiences sometimes 'see the light.' Maybe if something got m...e good enough to put me out for a while I could have one of those, and maybe my light could be my mom.I wanted to talk to her so bad. Logically I knew that I couldn't. It wasn't possible. But I was having a difficult time accepting that fact. I needed her to tell me why. I just wanted it explained to me. Why had she kept me away from Eddie? Should. Greg heard the advice given by his senior partners. They did not say never, they reinforced Jacobs earliest advice, be careful. Greg decided that he and Laura could be careful and still have each other in a more circumspect way. Dan was up first, showered and into his black silk pajama bottoms before Laura showed signs of movement. He left the top for her and went downstairs to start breakfast. Laura appeared later wearing Dan’s PJ top, and they ate breakfast on the patio. Dan apologized. Anyway, back to me. I am 5'9", at the time; 175lbs, light skin, with dark features and light brown eyes. I attract the woman of Trinidad easily but don't do so well here in the states. The real problem was, at 17, I still had a baby face. Luckily, I played football and was built like it. My stomach was flat as a board and my waist was 29". My butt was tight and my shoulders were broad. Because of my accent, all I had to do was open my mouth and just about say anything and woman would. Gomez's cooperation in however Mrs. Gomez wished to handle the situation of her wayward husband.It was with trepidation that I phoned the Watkins Inn Tuesday and asked the clerk to ring the family's suite. The girl answered immediately."Good evening, Miss Gomez," I said politely. "May I speak to your mother, please?"The girl repeated her answer just like I'm sure she was instructed."She is in the shower," she told me. "May I please take your name and number and have her return your call?"I had.