She found nobody else who could speak English; Davina was rarely around, though where she hid herself was a mystery. the Chief Eunuch was a busy man a...nd only spoke to give orders to her, usually to eat more. Her figure filled out; in her own eyes she put on far too much weight.Looking at the walls more closely, she discovered that they were, indeed, decorated with what she thought were nasty pornographic bedroom scenes depicting couples in various forms of sex, some more possible than others.. Somehow, gone was all the happiness that had been there for a bit more than half a year. I had known that this day might come but I had had no idea it could feel so bad. Yet I had to do it. It was part of the plan. Just to make things worse, the ladies from the bank had arranged an impromptu party. Soon I was blushing and grinning when the older women were pulling my leg with stories about dirty diapers and burping the baby. Even if I had felt like shit in the beginning, their good mood was. I have realized that I am full-blowntransgendered and that, unless I want to live for the rest of my life withthe intense clashing of emotions that I have felt ceaselessly for the pasttwo days (though really, it's been all my life), I'm going to have to behonest someday, and much to my regret, probably soon.I know how my family will react. My mother's side is prone to "mentalillness". There are inbreeders, alcoholics, druggies, rapists,homosexuals, and yes, a transvestite (though no TG, much to. Most men, even experienced ones have only received a little sucky-kissy, and that's all they expect. But let me tell you, when I get to work on them they never forget the experience, I've actually made some men cry. When you find that with practice, you can control your gag reflex well enough to take your man at least to the back of your mouth, you will truly be on the way to giving a superior blowjob.At this stage there is something to remember for your own safety before trying the real thing..