Then she asked if she could get my opinion on something, I said sure of course and she said she liked a boy who sat next to her in her first class and... did I think he would notice her today? I told her if he''s male and he has a pulse he would! She really seemed to like that answer and said thanks. She said she wasn't sure if he thought she was pretty, and I said of course you are so go get this lucky guy! She left for school happily.The next day I waited for her to say something about the day. Her heart waspounding though. SHE CARES!"Oh of course, yes! Not in the same way I did at first, though. You know,you lost your Mum suddenly didn't you?" Yes that's right, I did. It never leaves me, but it doesn't hurt the samenow. So I know exactly what you mean."Tanya looked up from the box. "Come and sit here, honey", she saidsilkily, patting the coverlet beside her. "Your Mum was a clever woman."Tanya raised her upturned palm to Carol's face, brooking no interruption."No, Carol, listen. She. I moaned and pushed myself forward, knowing I would shoot in 3 or 4 thrusts. But after 2 times he pulled off and stood up!He stood there as I raised my hips as high as I could, hoping he would relieve me. He did not. He leaned forward placing a hand on either side of my chest and slowly moved himself over me. As his face got close enough to mine to feel his breath on my face, he pushed up away from me, leaned on his right hand and took his left hand down to my raging hard on. He put his hand. Because I wanted to know what was going on. I mean ... my dad was talking about shooting, and pumping rounds himself, and killing kids, and the airplane crash ... I mean, I was curious to know what he was doing." Do you remember the moment your thoughts moved beyond curiosity and you decided to take action to undermine your father's intentions?" Yes sir. I remember the exact moment. It was the moment my father attacked my girlfriend's honor on the phone. When he did that, my thoughts about him.