Deirdre deeply hated me and would do anything to hurt me.After lunch, good sex and a long, hot shower, Joan and I took a nap. When we awoke it was tim...e to talk about revenge.“Your Aunt spent considerable time meeting with a therapist during the last five years.” Joan seemed to know an awful lot about Deirdre’s private affairs. Before I could interrupt and ask why, she answered the question. “According to notes our agents were able to read, Deirdre was suffering from severe depression that was. All this time John was moving from one place around the bed to another, holding a video camera to his eye, “This’ll sell a few copies” he chuckled.Eventually after what seemed an age John put down the camera and joined the other two men in using the girl strapped to the bed. “I’m going to untie you now” said John softly into her ear, “but if you try to run before we’ve all finished with you then God fucking help you.” With that Isi felt the binds loosening around her ankles and wrists, felt the. The clerk stepped in, blockingme inside the cramped, shallow space.I do not consider myself gay, but as a sissy, the idea of being used as agirl by other guys in such a degrading way has always turned me onimmensely. I've never sucked cock before, but always fantasized aboutbeing forced to, and now, as my fantasy was being realized, I felt scared,ashamed, revolted, and incredibly turned on. As I reluctantly unzipped thefly on his bulging slacks with my trembling hands and reached in, I feltthe. It was something, but he didnt want to say love and look silly. His eyes were glued to the table. Then his father spoke up. It was love. Mike looked at his father, the eyes full of sympathy and understanding instead of exasperation and disappointment as they usually were when they talked. Mike felt his eyes well up. I know how it is. I had someone like that in high school. It isnt, usually what adult love is. Its different, due to the fact that you have to sneak around and dont have the freedom.