Sept 30I feel very weak today. What little sense of hope I had has washed away in the slow drizzle that continues to fall outside. Somehow I know that... the doctor was right, and I shall not be the rare exception who survives this disease. My gown was delivered this morning, but it brought little joy to the house, the package sits in the hall unopened. It all seems so pointless. The weeks of planning, all for nothing. I don't even know why I bother to keep this record that none will profit. It seemed so unfair that Alice was ignoring him. I had your dad although I was ignoring him, and he didn't seem to mind..." So what changed?" Your dad came home one night. Work had gone badly, and we had a row. He told me I wasn't the sort of wife he'd been expecting. He was right. The house was a mess. You were a mess."It wasn't an epiphany, or anything, I just decided to admit to myself that I'd made a mistake. Back then, of course, getting married was ... Well, people got divorced, but it. "I just want to make sure that it isn't painful for you" I replied."Uh oh, I've never done that before!" She moaned, and then she buried her face in the pillows and twisted her ass up into the air. I took that as a green light, and I spread her ass, pouring a lot of lube in between those round cheeks. I lubed my cock up even more, and then I straddled her legs. I positioned my cock against her ass and started to push. She was clenching down, not letting me inside. I told her to relax as I. "She broke off in tears again.Recovering slightly she continued, "We met the Emir and he courted both of us and married both of us. Even though I bore him a child, I still love my poor dead Andrew, and he knows that. That is one reason why he lets me come to you for company. Now I am afraid that I shall lose another husband in another stupid war, and it has shown me how much he has come to mean to me." Believe me, ma'am," the butler reassured her, "There are ten thousand men whose first aim is.