I even began looking forward to the bracing chill that brought me wide awake every morning. That was actually better than a cup of coffee because I di...dn't have to pee 20 minutes later.Outside was different though. It was springtime in Washington and so the wind was cool and the sun still distant. It rained often and the ground was soft and spongy and cold. I had no shoes, no raincoat or anything, I was a bitch, a female dog, and I had come to enjoy that role even as I wondered how long it could. Oh bugger she said I can’t control them anymore they just leak all the time and she started to cry. I said they’re lovely auntie let me empty them for you then we’ll try again. She smiled and as I popped a nipple in I drank deeply of the sweetest breast milk yet. It took ten minutes to empty her left breast. As I snuggled on her belly she caressed my head and unfastened my trousers and wanked me gently then roughly till I spurted all over the living room floor. I then had to empty the. People back east had to have meat for the table, or at least they thought they did, and the small stopper the local buyers and railroad section boss had tried to put in the bottle just couldn't hold the pressure.The cattle drive to Ft Worth was only a little more than a hundred miles and while it was senseless on the face of things it was close enough to give us an alternative market for our stock.The local auction was put on hold for a month due to the meager turnout and it was right up my. Now, the only safety is in solitude, the only peace of mind available is loneliness. The stones at my back are cooling off, a sign that the Sun is setting. The wind whistles through cracks in the aged walls which surround me and I long for days when I may have been able to repair the damaged areas. To think, all the destruction beset about me because of one beautiful dead girl and the fool of a woman who tried to bend the natural balance at the request of grieving parents. I was little more.