Today is your 18th birthday, and honestly, you're not too surprised to find your family and friends hosting your surprise party. Smiling at the assort...ed well-wishers you glow with excitement as your mom presents you with a massive cake, "Thanks, everyone! Wow, it looks really good!"So you enjoyed the cake, the various presents and the attention... and tried not to notice a sulking figure leaning in a corner, away from the festive spirit.The figure, wrapped up in a dark attire of black clothes. Had she been a weaker person, Amanda might have taken an overdose of pills or slashed her wrists. Yet she managed to stagger through the remaining couple of years until graduation. But she carried with her deep wounds and a heavy burden of unworthiness. Unworthy of love. Worthless. A waste. A total waste.Later, much later, she was still alone. Alone and lonely. Miserable. Unloved. Unlovable. In her mid-forties still a virgin, and not by choice. No man would have her, it seemed. For that matter,. So not just my big boobs, but even my round bubble-shaped ass was on display. The headlights approached. It turned out to be a bus. Passed by. No honks or anything. I had been worried over nothing. This felt good. I got off the ledge and lay down on the balcony floor. Started masturbating. Got myself off in a couple of minutes.That's when I heard some faint voices in the distance. Still lying on the floor, I peered through the bars. Two men were walking up the street some 200 yards away,. I finally got him to admit he was wanting to dress up in a nice sexy outfit and was wondering if i would like to too and come down for a little fun. I agreed and went into my closet and came out with a nice black lace bustier with straps, black stockings, panties and a pair of black, ankle strap high heels. Once I had them on, I put on a nice two piece skirt and blouse over my outfit and headed down to Walt's place. Being out in public even for a short distance got my juices going. As I knocked.