They were in scouts. Stuff like that. Men things."Liz nodded her head. "Normal boy stuff, right?" Jackie nodded, bewildered. "And you resented your mo...m because she wouldn't do those things with you?"Jackie glared at her. "You don't understand!" she snarled. "I never got to do anything. And all the other boys called me names, teased me. Sissy boy, they called me! They wouldn't play with me, they beat me up all the time!" Her voice was angry again, a reflexive reaction to the bitter memories of. ) I started to realise that I am kinda interested in what it would be like to touch a man. I wanted to pleasure another man. I wanted to feel his naked body... and so I did.I headed to Amsterdam for an evening last March. I had just broken up with my girlfriend and I wanted distraction. It was a mild Sunday evening so I went for a wander through the Red-light district. I contemplated paying a visit to one of the many stunning women who decorate the windows along the canals, but the thought of. "I know you're with Cindy but if things don't work out."To say that I was feeling panic was an understatement, "Whoa! I'm flattered that you think of me that way but waiting for me to become available is not an option for you to be considering." I know. I'm sorry. I just wanted you to know that I've always thought about you as more than a friend. Now that you're leaving, I have some regrets about never getting to know you better." I'm flattered. I truly am, but you've got to work things out. "Okay, baby. Visiting hours are officiallyover, but the floor supervisor agreed to let you see your mama." Shepulled one of my hands from the flowers in my lap. "Now I'll warn youahead of time, she's going to look a bit banged up."All the awful images of what might have happened to my mom came rushingback. After all this time waiting to see her, I was almost ready tochicken out. "Whatcha mean by 'a bit banged up'?" Well, from what I saw on her chart, it seems as if the side-impactairbags didn't.