I don't dare move I don't dare make a sound and when I do finally sit downon the bench it sounds so loud to me I think everyone will just bustthrough ...the door and see me trying on women's pants while already wearinga women's blouse and when the door latch snaps open I nearly shriek withfright but it's only the salesgirl."I think these should do fine," she says, handing me a pair of whitepatent leather court shoes with what must be a four inch heel, "They gowell with your blouse."My hands are. " Brian loves all his girlfriends. Rachel and Brenda and Whitney and Rose. Donna and Elaine and Renee and Doreen and Sora. Denise and Sugar. And me. Brian loves me." Well, you got that right. I do love you." You just think it's different. It isn't really. You still love Joanne, too." Even after everything? Yeah. I still loved Joanne. Loved the way she'd been my guardian angel. Loved the way she'd taught me to kiss and taught me so much else. Loved the way we'd played in the lake. "Do you love. She'd always been friendly to me too."Hi Jackie. I'm just out here trying to keep away from Tony and April." Tony and April were her younger brother and sister, they were about 6 and 8 years old. Theresa was the one who watched them all the time, because her mom and dad worked the same shift over at Electric Boat, a big shipbuilder in Groton, part of General Dynamics Corporation. They were the biggest employer in town. "I get so tired chasing after them all day, they never seem to sit down and. I lost the weight that I had stored up over the winter months when I was basically immobile and hibernated like one of the thick-haired bears that took deep cover and concealment in their hidden lairs.For some strange reason, I was also plagued by random visions from my other time period and I thought I could hear the sounds of napalm-dropping air strikes close enough to singe my whiskers from lingering memories of long forgotten Southeast Asia. I had managed to hide my PTSD issue not wanting.