Still she had not seen the blood so I covered it with bread spread. As she raised to sit, she was feeling pain.Oh, brother what fate you have made I c...an't even sit, she said smiling. If we go for another round pain will be gone, I said. Oh my god not now, we will be repeating it frequently but not today. I asked her lie down for some more time mean while I will bring some refreshment. She asked me not to leave her alone, but I consoled her and left room after getting dressed. Within few. There was one minor difference. The boys ward had one window. It was in my room, the room I shared with Robert, one of my fellow lunatics. The girls ward didn’t have windows at all, only heating vents. All of us, (boys and girls,) had heating vents. We all had desks. The desks stood against the wall and each desk had a lamp on it. Each lamp was shaped like a giraffe. The bulbs were as dim as shit. They barely gave off any light. Not enough to read by. The floors were granola colored. Were. Even you three, as wonderful as you are, couldn't take away the pain of my previous years. Maybe now that he is dead, maybe... maybe it will be different. I don't know. I think I will see you all again; I hope so! I likely will not stay; it would just hurt you all if I did, but I would so like to see you again. I plan to see and talk to Patrick again before I die here; that will be a thrill. I wish I could talk to you girls too.I have to go. The time is short, and I must finish the mission. I. She walked into the bathroom where the 5 girls were having a meeting. They were smoking pot. ‘Can I have a hit?’ she asked. She had never smoked it before. A girl handed the joint to her, and she pretended to inhale. ‘Hey, can I join you girls?’ she asked. ‘Girls’ the leader Monique said. ‘We’re fuckin’ women.’ ‘Well okay, can I join you, uh, fucking women?’ They all laughed. ‘Well sure,’ she responded. ‘But you have to go through our initiation. We’ll meet you at your house tonight.’ ‘But I.