But Brin, I am married to Dave. What I have is his. What he has is mine." And all the stuff yesterday?"I closed my eyes. "Yes. Everything that could b...e tickled, it was tickled very well. But my heart, Brin ... I am Carlita, a girl from an orphanage, raised in a church. I know that all this, it is wrong..." I opened my eyes, saw her soft, rounded face, sad. This is MY doing."Gosh, Brindy, what am I supposed to do?" I know. It's tough. I dunno what to do either. I mean, I LOVE Pat. That's for. The nightgown, the soft silky robe and the high heel slippers were areally a new sensation.Cathy and I agreed we needed to take a week or so off from work to learnabout my new life. But she thought it wise that I go into work andexplain my problem to my boss. I was nervous. Would she understand andhow would the others treat me? Cathy said I have to face my new life asa woman and start now.Cathy and I sat around all morning reading the magazines Nurse Sallygave us. We read up on the school and. Just as long as youare healthy. By healthy, I mean that you do not smoke, not a constantdrinker, and keep a level head around drug use (or better, don't use atall). You also should have the same mindset.If you come at me with a question about my ethnicity or need to see aface pic to see if we'll be a good match, I can assure you we won't be,and that is based on our differing perspectives of what makes a personattractive - not saying that I am not physically attractive in theleast, just that I. .." I was finding it hard to breathe LT was strangling me " I'd like to try angel.....and my sanity has yet to be proven I admit but I know I would regret not trying " Missy ... Let go of him and come here" LT kissed my ear " don't you leave I love you" she whispered" I won't angel " I missed her head once more and pealed her arms from around me " I love you to" She sat beside her mom looking so small and frightened " Pea are you sure you want to do this ......it would be easier now than in a.