’ ‘Well Maria and Bernardo do, and now you do.’ ‘Finish the story, you must have made it up with Silvio.’ ‘Yes, thanks mainly to Bernardo ...and Gianna really. Bernardo reminded his father of my state of mind just after the divorce and Gianna, who spent the next couple of days quizzing Maria, assured him that it had only been this one occasion when my control had slipped. Anyway, she never really believed I was the father. After much persuasion, and for the sake of Maria, he agreed to speak to me. In many ways he was a quiet man who kept himself to himself, but he would have been moved that so many are here today."Dad, for the times we shared - good and bad, for the love between us, for all that you gave me that helped shape me into the young man I am today, I'll miss you."For the quiet advice, for the steadying hand, aye and especially for the bollockings when I deserved them, I'll miss you."For the constant support, encouragement and obvious pride in even my smallest achievement, I'll. 6/18/1980Dear Diary, Oh, I feel so sad right now. Jason and I have been fighting for stupid silly reasons. I always say something to get him mad. Like when I told him he shouldn't drink too much, cause we would need the money when the baby came. He was pissed. He said he was the one working all the overtime. He should be allowed to have a drink now and then. Is that wrong Diary? All I know is my tummy is starting to swell slightly. I can feel my baby growing. I have to go diary, Jason gets home. He’s a dog, not a human. Mel knocks spots off of him in so very many ways. Mel’s lips on mine, or Max’s tongue attempting to lick my face? – no contest. Max has been knocked into perpetual second place.For one, she’s a whole lot better at wishing me a good day and telling me she can hardly wait to see me later than Max has ever been. When we do reunite, Max’s wild tail-wagging antics are more related to what I can do for him (a walk, food, play, treats) than wanting to be close to me in.