But even though we were best friends, it was hard for Brenda to tell me the rest. The asshole had somehow secretly placed his cell phone on the table ...next to the bed. And he had video of himself having sex with me. He put it up on the web and I had to literally sue him to get him to take it down. And he was telling everyone he ran into about it. Since then, I don't date or at least I haven't, because I've just lost the ability to trust people. I know I'm a big fat cow, but I have some feelings. "Maybe I can just reenter the temple in my dreams," he thought. Lying back and closing his eyes, he tried to relax so that he could fall asleep.It was pointless though. There was no way he could relax now, he was too worked up. He couldn't stop thinking about Lilith's words, or the anguished look in her eyes. James had never imagined that she was in so much pain, and he felt guilty for trying to push her away. He spent hours tossing and turning in bed, trying to quiet his mind and fall back. Instead he closed his eyes and turned his head from side to side. In an evil sibilant whisper he spoke to Holly, who I still couldn't see. "That's it, baby, work it. That's it, I'm almost glad I came all the way down here. Work it real good now and I'll give you something real special." Kevin said then shifted his weight onto the other fat leg. The van rocked to the left. Like a trigger, I pulled myself back behind the van. He was moaning like he had stomach cramps, but I doubt he was feeling. ‘Sam,’ I cried, ‘you are a genius and I love you.’ ‘Thanks, but what for?’ I kissed her and said, ‘If what I’m thinking of works, I’ll know tomorrow afternoon and I’ll tell you then.’ l kissed her once more and spent the rest of the day planning what I would have to do the following day. I felt elated, because I had an idea that could work and scared to death because if it went wrong I would need to go and find a small hole somewhere in the world and crawl into it. I went to bed that night as.