His love for you is unconditional, but you must want it in your heart for it to exist in your heart. As for you forgiving yourself, only time will all...ow for that to happen. As you said, God is the fundamental for all things. You sound as if you suffer from a broken heart of sorts, as if you have fallen out of favor with yourself. God allows the healing of your heart to take place, but you must chose to let it be healed, not even God can force that on you. What we do in life is all we have of. Well before I hop into the shower I might as well finish some paper work, I thought to myself. I spent fifteen minutes on paper work and decided I'd better check on the girls before getting into the shower, so I walked down the short hall way to the pool area. At first I did not see the girls, until I was at the edge of the pool, to my surprise all three of them were swimming in the nude.Now they didn't see me right away, they are talking about me, then Mary (one of the girls) turned and saw me. And now all the Girls were sitting behind and I drove alone and they were too busy exchanging their feeling but Apple was mostly silent and was stealing glances at me too often. When I smiled at her in the read view mirror she bent her Head smiling. I knew that I had pressed her Breasts harder than on Brownie and she was feeling new now.After our weekend flings, Silent Fairy was now bolder and she used to call me at odd times to talk to me. This weekend I decided to pick her first and then she. Driving past a park once, I saw a group of people sunbathing, one girl showing Her knix. I dumped the van and rushed along in my mac, then walked past them as slowly as I could, pausing to ogle Her. Then She sat up, moved position, not appearing to notice me at all, then lay down again, Her sky-blue knix still showing, while I puffed and panted there, red-faced, my pants getting a soaking with cum. Sometimes I was working on the south coast, and I could park on the seafront road and hope to.