But I am determined. This is my chance to prove I am new person. Even if I am not trying to be with anyone, I have to work on being a better person. I...f I don’t, I won’t be happy loving myself either. So here it goes, ‘I was scared is still the truth. But, saying I had never felt pleasure like that before and I haven’t since, is also the truth. So, you know I’ve struggled with the whole pleasure guilt thing since we were kids. But I swear to you, I wouldn’t have gone as far as we did if I didn’t. I want you to feel both pain and pleasure not one or the other. We'll start small. I take the lube and run a small amount between the cheeks of your ass. You have such a great ass. You can't see what I'm doing and you start shaking again. Good. My finger slips inside you and you jerk at the sudden invasion. I laugh. I'm so wet and excited. Just seeing you this way tied and at my mercy. You start squirming as I thrust my finger in and out of your pretty asshole. You moan. I add a second. My dick was getting harder and harder. I could not take my hands of Frank at a certain moment. I started to stroke his leg and arm continuously. Frank found my hand, and held it, softly playing with my fingers. The conversation fell quiet. Frank got up from his barstool and stood between my open legs. He looked me in the eyes and started kissing me. I put my arms behind his back and pulled him closer. I could not feel his body enough and stood up as well. We pressed our bodies against each. I?ve thought this through thoroughly. No mistakes. Not like that dumb schmuck who grabbed his girl, raped her and tied her while he tried to get rid of her car. He tied her so badly she escaped, ran down the street naked and now he is in the slam. Not for me! Chains, locks, cuffs, irons. Once I get her, she?ll never -- never escape -- escape my tender application of judicious pain. Pain applied to convince her that loving me is preferable to continued increase in pain level. My electrical.