I told her sorry and apologized to her and requested her not to tell my mother and was really frightened. I could not concentrate on anything else and... I told her to leave me early that day since I am upset and she did so without telling me anything further.That night I could not sleep thinking how to face her again and next day I did not go telling I am not well. After two days she came to my house and I was too afraid an embarrassed to face her. But she behaved normally as if nothing happened. I felt like I'dhad 4 or 5 stiff drinks.Dr. Tom held a straw to my lips, and I sucked some kind of citrusy drink. "I'msedated," I managed to croak. Tom nodded.Looking directly at Linda I said, "You deserve someone better than me. Youshould have let me die." Sedated or not, I began to cry. "This doesn't changeanything; I still can't go on living."Linda gently hugged me. "I love you," she whispered. I don't know how long shestood there. I could feel the wetness of her tears roll down my face and. “I ... I’m not sure. I’m feeling so close to the people in the Circle that I wanted to do just what they do. Everyone here seems so ... balanced and sane. The ones I’ve talked to are looking forward to the events; they aren’t upset about the potential of sex with people they’ve barely met. One woman told me she knew she’d feel more loved when it was over. I guess the lover of my lover is my lover.”“You don’t think you’ll feel used?”“No. These are people that will care about me in many ways. I. If a solar beam iscrossing this subsector..." kept mumbling Thomas..."How it's possible that you could be using that tool?" Thomas furtherasked."Is nothing but a cut edge map Mayor Thomas, this don't get affected bythose events," the lie keeps growing in the hands of a even more nervoushooded woman; "But anyway I believe we should go to that point and waitfor contact by the Twilight." This isn't gonna be easy brother, this place is filled with even largerbeast that the one we just killed,".