I should have never cheated on him. I should have let him get me pregnant when he first wanted a baby. If we had kids I'd have an extra hold on him. S...teve would never leave his children. He loved kids in general. But our kids ... They would have owned his heart even more than I did.I could have spent the rest of my life being the best wife possible for him. That had been my intention after all. The fling with Rick ... And that was all it was ... A fling. A momentary scratch for a tiny itch that. Maine socha ab toh shamat aa gayee agar unhone baata diya mere bare mai toh to phir khair nahi.Woh raatt mai so na saka. Aagle din subh mai exercise karne chala gaya mausm acha tha par mere man gym mai na laga aur mai Mami se sorry kehne chala aaya, mai soch he raha tha ke kya kahu utne mai woh aa gaye aur mujh ko dudh diya,maine kaha mami j sorry age se kabhi nahi karunga. Woh muskura de aur bole koi baat nahi mai samajhte hu aur unhone mere gaal ko haath laga diya. Ufff jaise current lag gaya. What just happened out on the boat then, is not like me at all. Do you think I’m a slut?”He reached over and pulled me to him and kissed me, “I think you are incredible, I hate that word ‘Slut’. It’s only used by guys that know a girl has slept with someone else but won’t sleep with them. In other words, it’s a word used by losers.”“But I’m having all sorts of conflicting thoughts. I even found myself getting a bit turned on when Ryker told us about Valerie and Sally. I wonder if I might. I felt like a million dollars as Knut handed me out through the front door, ten minutes late. My hair perfectly coiffed, my makeup was almost invisible but I had been amazed at the difference when I looked in the mirror. My party dress was a froth of a thing in black chiffon shot through with gold. The low neckline displayed an acre of cleavage, but I'm proud of my boobs; it was the cut of the hem which had really attracted me. On the left it came to a rounded taper about mid-calf then it cut.