"Um, no. Just girl problems. I'll be out in a minute." Girl problems?Really? Like she was going to fall for that. So much for hiding in therestroom fo...r the whole night. As soon as I was certain that Abby hadleft the restroom, I emerged from the stall.In this ridiculous game that I was being forced to play, I was losingbig time. Loosing was a feeling I was not accustomed to. I looked atmyself in the mirror. Cute was so much more than appearance I realized,and flirting as a girl with strangers. " That doesn't make sense Gail Sue. You had me and you threw me away. You were very clear about your opinion of me and your need to get away from me and move on." I didn't mean it Rob. I made a big mistake. I expected you to miss me and decide that you didn't want to lose me and you would ask me to please come home. Then I was going to say okay, but only if you would loosen up sexually. The last thing that I expected was that you would file for a divorce. I thought you loved me. I thought that. "You two have a good night and make some more music." He gave me an exaggerated wink and whacked me on the shoulder as Lisa and I picked up our guitar cases to leave. Damn, right on the stitches.Back at the hotel, Wanda and John split off to their room and the Fab five, Tina, Lisa, and I went to a big room with two king beds. We all stripped down and washed up to get the bar smoke off us. We needed a shower, but were all too tired. I was paired with Lisa and Brandy with Tiani on the outside of. "That's just it, I don't know what it is," I admitted. "I think it's all of it. The Task Force, Scarborough, breaking into my office. You almost being killed, watching a man die. I had never doubted you before. Once I started to doubt you, I can't seem to stop. That makes me doubt myself. It makes me doubt us. I've wondered if you would have gone through with the plan to pass defense strategy to Jane if you hadn't thought she would tell me. I wonder how far you would have let Scarborough go.