I really can’t believe that the men wouldn’t love to dance with you.” “It’s not that I think I am grotesque. I am just honest with myself. ...There are far prettier girls than me, and they have better bodies.” I took a large swig of my drink, having to force it past the lump of tears that had formed a painful barrier in my throat. I’d had self-esteem issue for as long as I can remember. Outwardly confident and outgoing, if not a little reserved. Inside it was a different story. My mind flashed. An underage girl I barely knew and had accepted responsibility for had just left for parts unknown and I had only one clue where she might have gone. Her mother lay unconscious in my guestroom, beaten senseless by my lover. The unconscious mother would have to be tended by the daughter of the woman who had just brutalized her. What, me worry?After checking on Nicole, I went up to Janey's room. She was already getting dressed, her eyes still puffy and swollen from crying, but her face set and. ”Carol, “I thought – if she’s willing to have sex with a dog for me, the least I can do is let her have sex with me too.”What would your husbands think if they knew you were doing this?“Mine would probably be turned on ... And pissed off that he wasn’t coming along to watch!” Answers Carol.Anita’s turn... “I don’t know. He probably wouldn’t care so long as he could still see the tv.”Do you think they will watch the show?Carol: “We watch it together every week. We love it. I can’t wait for my. " Are you trying to say I didn't love you enough to make you stay a boy." No, I'm not saying that. I'm just saying that I wish you had tried alittle harder to get me to think about what I was doing instead of justcheering me on the way you did. You and Mom both cheered me on. It'salmost like I was doing this as much for you guys as I was for myself." I'm sorry if you feel that way, but your Mom and I were just trying tolet you do what you wanted to do." But I was only 16 when I told you that I.