There were mixed feelings. Some way or the other, I wanted to hint this guy that I am interested in joining their gay sex adventure.I said, “I have ...some new gay porn on my phone. Ask your friends if they want to see that instead of these old ones.”There was no change in his expression. He stood still and in a rough voice he replied, “Come play that new video and join us if you like.”That was the gate-pass which I needed badly.“Are you sure?”, I asked him again as confirmation. He did not answer. Joab had been the first person in a long time I had cared for. He was strong and passionate. He loved me.And maybe I loved him.But I messed it up.I replayed the fight over and over in my mind. I said such nasty things to him. And what he said to me in return ... I deserved to be called a whore for how I treated him. I never opened up fully to him ... I never let him get close enough. I kept him at bay to protect me from harm.And now I was alone again. The twins didn't need me. They had each. I hadn't noticed Billy with a phone in his hand. But then can't say that I'd been watching while I was checking-in. Anyway, I'd always considered Billy Thornton to be a bit of a disorganised scatterbrain back at college, why should I suspect he'd changed. Whatever before I got the chance to ask him any more questions, Billy said that he had to go, and dashed off to retrieve his luggage."Don't do anything I wouldn't ... If I got the chance?" Were his last words.I doubt he heard me reply. "Some. He only gave 5 or 6 loads but hey tasted great. I sucked him dry then stood up and whisperd lightly into his ear then blew on it.(I had recentaly found out that doing that made him aroused) Then i started to tounge wrestle with him which got him up again. then i Straddled him yet again and began to lower my self on him. Sinse it wasnt my first time it was easy and really smooth. Half way through he started to get harder and bigger. finnaly i got all the way down then i quicky slip up to the tip.