One of the ways that helped me come out my shell was chatting and cybering online. There in the privacy of our home, I could find out more about men, ...women, and couples and their sexual preferences. I found it very exciting to go out and sex with someone besides my husband. Afterwards I would often sit down and write about my sexual encounters. I loved writing erotica and my stories would range from what my fantasies were, to what I have actually experienced. My favorite fantasy is to have sex. I held on, trembling as I stared up into her face, my muscles taut, my nerves on fire, each breath out of control, finding something in her eyes that anchored me, some sort of strength, or perhaps it was fear, that kept me from cumming until finally, just as I was about to lose the battle, she turned it off… I felt like collapsing. I began to sob softly, not just from the physical ordeal I’d gone through, but the emotional one as well. I wanted her to take me in her arms and hold me, and tell. .wow I am so turned on..."Stop this!" Oh God I can't can't stand it, it's so HOT that I'm so hard and you areso soft down there...it's almost as if...can I do it...can I do it...I'mnearly...OH MY GOD IT WORKED! OH MY GOD OH MY GOD I HAVE BALLS AND... YOUHAVE A VAGINA! A VAGINA!" Give me it back! GIVE IT BACK!" Oh my god oh my god I've got a cock and you haven't! I'm pressingagainst your Vagina ... your PUSSY...pressing... pressing...oh god oh jesus Iwant to...to...oh God I can't help myself I'm. I glanced up at him and he smiled and nodded, then leaned his head back, moved his hand away and left me to it.I was slowly working my mouth up and down his shaft, trying to figure out how much I could take, after all I didn't want to spoil my first experience by going too far. His cock wasn't too thick so I was able to be careful with my teeth and see his reaction to everything I did. I swirled my tongue on the underside of his tip, took it out of my mouth to lick around the base and over his.