The whole consultationlasted over an hour and a half.He confirmed that he had no doubts that I am gender dysphoric and thatwith my attitude and obviou...s comfort with myself, thinks that I willmake a satisfactory transition. My interpretation, cannot rememberexactly what he said.We discussed my current hormone regime and my planned changes and saidthat he could find no problems with it except to halve the finasterideto 2.5mg per day.He wrote out a private prescription for 4 months supply. The bills aren't closing, so I'm going to need to look for a full-time job.Mom's money is being practically all destined to pay off the debts my father's treatment left behind. I'm sure she wouldn't hesitate to pay again if there was a chance dad might still be alive, but it's all so expensive...George Mason, my father, already imagined that he would not win the fight against cancer and left a package of things that he believed were special to each of us. I didn't get to see Mom's or Ash's. Could she really bear his child and not feel something special for him? And, horror of horrors, might she actually leave me, for the father of her baby? Surely, it could not happen, and yet... Autumn became winter and Clare, now six months gone, radiated serenity. A smile from her and I would feel at peace with the world. A frown, and my deep-seated concerns would resurface; my mood would become as black as the wintry weather. But winter passes too, and the first daffodils of the spring had. It sounds so nasty and Im feeling like a bad girl but my god,Ive never felt this weak before. I keep looking at him andthe more I look at him the more tingly I get. His tongue ismoving so fast on my vagina. He looks up at me and his faceis wet and he looks so silly. He says I have a beautiful pinkvagina with a great clit. I say Thank you and ask him whata clit is. He stops and says can you feel this? And he licksmy outer lips. I say yes, and he tells me those are your lips,your outer lips. Then.