I had the double standard that the author talked about. Deep down I guess I didn't want to marry a woman who had been with another man. I wanted a vir...gin. I was willing to date these women and have sex with them but when it was time for commitment I always back away knowing they had been with other men. Damn! I didn't like being this person. I was two-faced and it began to bother me.My parents, God bless them, were always worried about me not finding the right woman. They probably fixed me up. He’s seeing as clearly as he has ever had. The forest is vibrant, alive. The dust of time that had muted his senses brushes away and suddenly they’re in overdrive taking in everything the forest has to offer. There it is. He sees the end. It appears as a bright golden light through the bushes and trees. Pete charges towards it as it intensifies, flaring before him, shining till it almost fills his widened eyes with a white glow. Then he stops. As the light subsides, he finds himself in. Let me know that there are things you want that you aren’t getting.’ Make this work? Oh, God! Julie realized. Gary was talking about staying together. Working things out. Jesus! How could he even be thinking about that? So soon after he had discovered? Julie felt a crushing guilt descend on her. She had already written off her marriage and assumed that Gary had done the same. In fact, hadn’t she used Gary’s almost certain rejection of her as her excuse to return to Greg’s bed? Gary looked at. I slip quietly inside the house after a long day at work. My face is a little flush with nervous anticipation, I’ve been planning this all day. I can hear the television in the living room, he’s watching the news. I call out a greeting as I head up the stairs and hear him reply, offering to cook dinner. I tell him not to worry, I’ll sort it out after I’ve had a shower. I wash my hair using the caramel shower gel, knowing how much he likes the scent. After my shower, I get dressed especially for.