I will stare at her ass when she will walk with her back toward me. I will help her in making dinner and set the table with her. Then we will eat and ...I will talk to her more and more and tell her about my day. I will go grocery shopping with her. I will text her from the college and ask how is her work. I wanted to get as close to her as possible and not in a son-mother way. I wanted to fill the void my father’s death had created. It seemed to be working. Now she was sharing a lot of thing with. But he also seemed a littlehurt that I wasn't practising on him! I explained that I didn't want totry blowing him up until I was sure I could do it properly. He looked atme very strangely when I said that, and then laughed. Like, a lot. Ididn't get the joke, but that's okay, as long as he's happy! Anyway, hewanted me to try it out then and there, but I persuaded him to wait untilafter we go out for dinner tonight. I can tell he can't wait!12 DecemberI really didn't know Daddy could cum that. "I stood up and let Grace into the aisle, and then took her window seat. Seconds later, Bill sat next to me."Grace said you wanted to talk to me," he said."Yeah. What environmental organizations do you belong to?"He sat back in his chair as if I'd struck him. "Huh?" Do you belong to any environmentally conscious organizations, you know, like Greenpeace or PETA?" No, what a strange question. Why did you ask it?" Then you wouldn't classify yourself as a tree hugger?"' "No. Is this about my belief. Finally, I decided I would see how far I could go. Ibegan to look upon her as less of a friend and more of asex object. I couldn’t help it! I felt like she wasusing me. I was giving her everything she wanted andnothing she didn’t want; she was giving me the worstcase of blue balls mankind had ever known. One warmsummer night, months after I had given her the firstmassage, I entered her room with an air ofdetermination.I put on Black Sabbath’s first album and turned off.