I thought she was regretting what shedid - but it turns out she was thinking."Jessica does not know who I am," she said, and paused, her eyes lookingu...p as if to follow her chain of thought - mother would have never shownher any pictures of me, I am sure - she hates the fact that I always lookso boyish. She is expecting a tomboy walking in with her long-hairedfriend. She is expecting me to look like I do not want to be there. Sheis expecting me to be scared." She paused again and looked right at. They would leave me with a babysitter all the time. My babysitter was a this really cool teenage skater boy named Tommy Wilson. Tommy was always nice to me even though I remember him treating me like a baby. He was the cool, calm and collected type that just wanted to get some cash so he could take his girlfriend to the movies. The Journal revealed to me that one night after dad and mom would get home from their adventures mom planned to lure Tommy into the kitchen and perform oral sex on him. .that hurt when she had finished she drew over theremaining hairs with a pencil.She worked for a bit longer then said you can look now. When I did Inearly fell off the chair I now looked like a girl, I looked at my mumand said I love it can I stay like this, my mum answered by saying."Yes I insist I've always wanted a daughter.," She went over to her bagand took her cigarettes out removed one from the pack and lit it, shethen offered me one I was shocked, I said, "Mum I don't smoke."She replied. But my mom is in her study working,” I said.“Will she want to check on us?” Alyssa asked.“Umm I don’t think so,” I said with a smile on my face. After that, Alyssa and I went up to my room. We put on a movie, and then cuddled on my bed for about thirty minutes. After that, I started to kiss her neck. She got the message and rolled over on top of me. “Did you bring a condom?” I asked.“Yeah,” Alyssa said pulling the condom out of her pants pocket. After that, we continued to make out for a while..