"I didn't know." I don't know who raped me," whispered Leah. "I never saw their ugly faces."Another long sob, the Sira said, "I'm okay. Let's just get... out of here." She gave Leah a final hug of gratitude, and the girls separated."Are you sure?" asked Daran, reaching to wipe a tear from her cheek."Yeah." A sniff. "I will be anyway."With nothing better coming to his mind, Daran said to his men, "Okay, let's move out." The soldiers, glad to be leaving the uncomfortable scene, to put their mind on. We made sure to tell them all that they would be formed up into work and family teams of five families each, the next day. So, if they had any particular people that they knew and wanted to team with, to let us know the next morning. By the time we were done just after our normal dinner hour we had processed fifty-two families. Of those, forty-six were on our confirmed list, and six were on the possibles list.Anna and I went out to the courtyard after breakfast the next morning and settled in. "What are you doing, Emmie?!" she yelled from across the field. Emily pretended she hadn't heard a thing, but Katie came running over. "I said, what are you doing?" I was just thinking... You know, you're going to be really tall when you grow up," Emily said, avoiding meeting her sole younger sister's eyes, which were two inches higher than her own."Can you think AND play freeze tag with us? We need another person."***"So how was school today," Sarah asked Emily after everyone else went up to. For a long time I knew I was dead, and then I realized that this thing that I was - wasn't death!I knew I wasn't alive, but I also knew I wasn't dead...All this dying was killing me!How can one be dead, but not dead? That was a tough question to work through, especially in my dead state, which seemed quite dead, even though I was not quite totally dead. The conundrum returned. Each time I died, I wasn't dead. My deadness was quite live, but my alive-ness wasn't all that alive.So there I was,.