Later Steve, Hank, and Randy showed up with about another 20 head. We were doing pretty good , so we found a good shady spot to sit and eat our lunch ...and give the horses a break. We were all talking about how many more heads of cattle were still left out there and getting our game plan for where to look for the remaining cattle still out there. I had to take a break to go out behind some trees and bushes to relieve my bladder, so I excused myself and trekked out to find a secluded spot for. I didn't want slaves to my biology. The worst part was that if they weren't forced to love me because of some manipulation to their brains, how would I ever know? Would this be in the back of my mind every time they said it? Could I trust myself to believe them? I could feel this worm of doubt in the back of my mind. I knew it would poison my relationship with them, but I couldn't see any way to stop it.Worse than that, was, how were they infected by me? Was it just when we made love, or was it. It struck me that there’s no escaping nostalgia when one goes home. I followed him from room to room listening to his stories, I laughed when he laughed and leaned against him when he’d go quiet and remember his mother. He told me about how his home had been so different from the others because his mother encouraged him to make a mess, whether it was with the paints in her studio, mud in the backyard or food in the kitchen, she encouraged him to have a hands on approach towards anything he did. I wanted to know if I could sit with you."I put my notes down, my curiosity in full play, and she said, "I recognized you from the afternoon art class and you were the only one in here that I recognized that had an empty chair at his table." I looked over at the table she had just vacated and then back at her. She caught the look and said, "I know, that's why I needed to move. There are two guys coming through the line and they would have headed right for my table. They are crude, obnoxious and.