If it gets too much I can always breath through my mouth. Not a problem." Wow, my very own Doug has become a full fledged fucker. Dear Serena has done... her job well. As this was our genuine first fuck, what I wanted to find out was how he would really measure up. My own sexual pleasures in this instance was not on the menu. I went naked. Skipped over all the preliminaries, just turned my back to him and leaned forward over the bed. All he has to concentrate on now was my very sexy butt and his. I watch it for a little while and then I threw it in the trash. I was struggling with the devil, but I was also the devil.I want the world of sexual hedonism, but I want to love good people, and I want the light of God. I don't want to lose my soul, and I my evil is hidden within the fold. It is in a place that only God and Satan can see it. God and Satan lead me home. I hate neither of them. I love them both. I am black, but that does not absolve me of guilt. Being black is not my. He is a young black guy and has a big black cock and he has fucked me several times and I loved it very much. It was a Friday evening and I was restless so I got dress and I wore a red dress very tight and short no bra or panties cause I felt very naughty and nasty. I called Shaun to see if he was home, his mom answered and said sure Hon he is come over so I got in my car and went to his house. I got down and knock on the door no answer so I knock harder still so as I was ready to leave the. "I'm going home. You can either come with me or stay here with your lovers and frankly I don't give a shit which one you choose."Loretta looked around the room; her gaze fell on Clara and she said in a weak voice "I'm sorry" and then she hurried after me.It was a very quiet ride home. Loretta stared out the passenger window and said nothing and I stared out the windshield at the road in front of me and was quiet. When we got home I went into the den and turned on the TV. I sat there channel.