The screaming and fighting isdriving me crazy. Now I don?t know what to do. I could go back, but I don?twant to. Only I have no where else to go. I tr...ied calling my friends fromschool, but they?re all busy. My only other relatives are up in NewYork. That might as well be a million miles away.I?ve only got $30.00 to my name.? I said as I poured my heart out. Our food came and we ate and talked. Shirley told me shewas a photographer on her way back home from an assignment in Washingtonfor the. There wasn't a room to be had within 15 miles. They had to move graduation to the football field and set up extra bleachers. To be sure the weather was warm enough, they delayed it for three weeks. It was good because competition for proper dress had become fierce. The girls started vying with each other to see who could capture the most male stares and before long, the mothers got into the spirit of it too.Sidney Burns had decided to have a graduation queen chosen just as they had one at the. Cousin”- smiling emoji.Me”- it was so wet and your white stuff was there on it and I said I liked your pee smell with emojiCousin”- smiling emojiMe*- dear have you ever masturbated?Cousin “- yes but sometimes.Me”- wow I also masturbate.Cousin”- ummmm did you ever had sex?Me”- no never, and do you had sex?Cousin”- no but I only masturbate when I shave my pussy.Me”- can we have sex?Cousin “- shut upMe”- please ,please ,pleaseCousin “- noMe”- can I come in your room?Cousin”- yes come but don’t get. After the second sarcastic comment, he stopped smiling. The third time he told me to stop, but I didn’t seem to know how. It was almost like self mutilation. As if each pass of the knife across my thigh could somehow drown the earlier hurt. Somewhere between my third and fifth observation, Wolf told me that he would spank me if I didn’t stop. I either didn’t believe him, or was too distraught to care, I can’t remember which, but I know I couldn’t seem to stop making ugly comments, hurting.