" He laughed real hard at that an' dropped the subject. He knew what I wuz doin', but he wuz smart enough ta keep his mouth shut on thin's what didn't... concern him.That afternoon, I started shooting classes with the rifles. Rastus an' Josiah didn't have no trouble, but Inez had trouble with the recoil. She was a small woman, so the heavy recoil of the Henry was puttin' a bad bruise on her shoulder. After half an hour, it became obvious that the Henry was jus' too much fer somebody as small as. But sometimes he even hated that, because it made it all the more dead when he went home. A lot of nights he’d stay up as late as he could, some nights he’d sleep on the couch even though it killed his back, some nights he’d go out on the porch of his apartment and stare up at the sky and chain-smoke, just so he didn’t have to be in bed. He was a big guy, so he had a big bed, and a big bed with no one in it was the emptiest thing in the world. Sometimes he would lie diagonally across the bed. . do that, and then say sorry and think that I would just forget it happened." I just want to fix things. Please? I need you." You should have thought about that when you asked me if I was a monster and then walked away."Aedan's arm tightened, and I was grateful for the support, but also for his silence. For everyone's silence. I was suddenly, finally done with being feeble, with needing to be protected. And my little family were letting me fight my own battle. I felt Tomas' hand on my. We would play together a lot and he used to spank me every time we played, I enjoyed the play spankings and that was all we did but then just before he moved away he wanted to do “it” just once. Well that was all it took and now I have my most precious thing on earth named Sarah. I went on to explain that my mother basically raised both of us and I have her to thank for Sarahs wonderful sparkling personality and intelligence. Mike could see that what I was telling him was dredging up a great.