“If I did that ... if I saved her, then I would have had to face Beckett this morning and ask him to go forward knowing I had already used my emerge...ncy safety potion. I would have just been a little girl, unable to make the hard decisions, asking him to trust me and go forward. He’d say we don’t know what we will find, and asking me what I’d do if we are surprised ... And he’d be right. But it is hard!.”She looks into my eyes. “Do you hate me, knowing I could have done that and didn’t?”“Her. ”As we stripped each other, I noted that some of the guests were also joining in as our bodies got naked. Occasionally, one of the men would have two women with him in a threesome. Margo, Taylor, and Blake were together near us. I could hear their murmurs of encouragement to us and to each other.As others stood around and watched, naked and grinning, Mindy and I came together on the mattress. We did a quick sixty-nine where Mindy was over me, but that was perfunctory to get us started. She. I was sitting at a table two days before the first purchase in which I would be involved."Do you mind if I join you, John?" Please, Maeve." I don't want to be stepping on anybody's toes here. I see you leave with Darcy now and then." She put her hand on my thigh. "But I do have an interest in you."I glanced down at her hand and smiled. "Your interest is welcome. And no toes are in danger."I liked Darcy, but I didn't see it as anything serious.I danced with Maeve. I tried to focus on the slower. “Every cloud has a silver lining?”“In a manner of speaking. Only for those that can see it and are willing to reach for it. And honestly, that can take quite a while sometimes.”“I wonder what my grandmother would say about that.”“Why not call her tonight and find out?”Her face dropped. “After our last conversation, I’m not sure I could survive another one with her.” She paused and looked ahead. “At least, not right away. I feel like I’m on shaky ground as is.”A hand gently touched his shoulder..