Moll's did her usual awesome job organizingthe tour and it was ready to go before we knew it. The bus wasorganized, this time the roadies were going t...o have their own van. Oursocial media pages were full of new dates, the promotional stuff was allready for release.The band gathered early Tuesday morning as we loaded our gear into thebus, we had a quick huddle and group hug before heading to Columbia toplay at the Blue note for our first gig on Wednesday night. Then itwould be on to St Louis. Carrie was disgusted and frustrated with herself. She toyed with the idea of going all the way with her boyfriend, thinking that maybe this would stop her from thinking about her father.One Friday night, after her mom and dad had gone to bed, she and Warren began another session. She had almost decided to let him take her. After about fifteen minutes of touching and groping, she allowed his hand to go up her skirt, move over the flesh of her thighs and finally to slip beneath the bottom of her. My internal feelings on the subject of which gender I preferred was one something that I had grown to accept and just hoped for the best and the love I needed so desperately.I closed the door behind number nine and saw an older woman with a teenaged girl trying to squeeze her into a bathing suit that was obviously two sizes too small for her plump rounded figure. The mother was a skinny as a bean pole and I think she was so oblivious to the fact that her daughter outweighed her lean, petite. It the way I deal with my past. When I was 8 years old, I witness my parents murder. Everybody said it was a blessing I was alive but I didn't feel that way. Everyday I wish I died with my family that day. An because of this I'm a loner, I stayed to myself my whole life.The annuversity of my parents death, I decide to kill myself by cut my wirst and bleed out. But it never went as planned. I went to my parents grave and said goodbye to them. I sat there with my wirst bleeding out listerning to.